-- did you take off when i was gone

[* reagan landers]

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first day of school? not the best day of the year. but reagan thought it was flipping awesome, because, guess what? it was the first day of her last year in highschool! the girl was more excited than a seven year old Christmas morning. when she woke up that morning, she probably had jumped out of bed faster than that seven year old. her parents hadn't even been up yet at all. in fact, reagan had just run into their room, begging them to get up... course, her dad hadn't been too happy about that at all. it was only six thirty in the morning; who in their right mind would want to be up when they didn't have to drop their daughter off till eight? apparently not her parents. oh well. she'd pretty much given up on them getting up early, and had gone down to get herself some coffee, and then finish packing.

then, about an hour later, she found herself dressed up, sitting in the car waiting for her parents, who seemed to be taking their good old time. in fact, she'd text her father about seven times, begging him to get out to the car before she just drove off on her own. she was pretty sure that was what got him going, because five minutes later, her parents were ready and they were out in the car. honestly, reagan had been bouncing. she'd always been a girl that was just way too excited for school. course, this was somewhat special, right? everything was new. she'd received a letter a bit early on in the summer, saying that she was getting a new dorm and, wouldn't you believe it, a new roommate. she was more than excited; she was ecstatic.

about an hour later, she was pulling up to the front entrance of the school with her dad. she didn't even wait for the car to stop, honestly; opening the door, she jumped out, grabbing her bookbag and her other bag that she could drag behind her. giving her mom and her dad a goodbye kiss, and saying that she'd see them at Christmas, she walked towards the school, the grin not wiping out on her face. honestly, it was quite hilarious to anyone just watching her. that's what her friends said to her as she found them and tackled them. goodness, her hyperness was awful. she definitely needed to tone it down a bit before she got something thrown at her. and she definitely didn't want to scare her new roommate away. she wondered what they would be like, if the girl would be awesome. or a guy! she hadn't had a guy roommate in the three years she'd been in bristol high, so it would definitely be an interesting change, she thought.

an hour with her friends was enough; reagan wanted to check out her new dorm. waving goodbye, she dragged her bag behind her as she listened to the music blasting through the headphones she'd shoved in her ears fifteen minutes earlier. as she listened to cobra starship's song pete wentz is the only reason we're famous, she walked up to the elevator, hitting the button for the first floor of the dorms. her dorm was a few dorms down on the left, apparently, according to the very vague directions she received from this kid who seemed to be too shy for his own good... she'd have to talk to him later.

walking down the hall, she smiled at a few people that walked past her, and an especially cute skater kid who gave her a look. hm.. new year was starting off pretty damn good. finding her dorm, she reached into her bag, pulling out the envelope that had her key in it. using it to open the door, she opened the door to her new dorm, and stopped in the doorway. holy shit.. it looked amazing! definitely bigger than her own room back home. oh goodness, this year was going to be sweet!

walking in, she automatically claimed one bed. that was a perk of being the first one in a new dorm; instant dorm claimage. throwing her bag on top of one of the beds, she pulled on her suitcase onto the bed also, opening it up. ugh.. she really did not feel like unpacking yet at all. placing her hands on her hips, she looked around, wondering what she could do... she was about to go check out the rest of the dorm when she heard a knocking at the door. room mate! turning around, she looked at herself in the mirror on the bureau really quick. she honestly didn't want to make a bad impression on her room mate. guy or girl. after ensuring that she didn't look like complete shit or a hyped up weirdo like she was feeling, she walked towards the door, pulling it open, speaking before she even got a look at her new roommate.

"hi! i'm reagan; this is going to be so ama--" she stopped mid sentence as she brushed her brown hair out of her face, looking up at her new roommate... who apparently, wasn't so new. at least to her. you'd think the school could at least give the name of a new room mate, right? well.. right now she was mad at the bristol high school board. they could have told her that jayden xavier knight was her room mate. "jay?! what are you doing here?!" she felt her bright smile from an hour and a half ago fade in a few seconds. she hadn't seen jayden in a year, since she'd told his parents about his drug addiction secretly. she doubted that he even knew that she was the one that got him to go..

"i thought you were in... in.... God knows where!" she crossed her arms, raising an eyebrow at him. she didn't want to sound mad or anything, because she wasn't. she was.. confused. "when did you come back? why didn't you call?! .... when did you start wearing girls' jeans?!" she stopped herself, thinking of how random that one question was. she looked down for a minute before finally giving him a smile. running forward, she tackled him, wrapping her arms around his neck. "you loser! you should have called me the minute you came back!" she hit his back as she kept him in the hug, her feet off the floor. finally, after about a minute, she let go, looking him up and down. "you look.. great! ... but honestly, what is with the girls' jeans?!" she laughed slightly, shaking her head, her hair flying out of her eyes once again. "oh, get in here! you're my room mate this year, right?" the hopeful tone in her voice probably gave away the fact that she was freaking excited about this. sure, things hadn't exactly been right when she'd last seen him, but nevertheless, he was her best friend since she was... seven. how could she not be happy?

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POSTING STATUS finished
TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 1,176
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
ANYTHING ELSE woww. best post i've had in a while? xD length wise, anyways

[jayden knight ?!]

what ever happened to the young man's heart?
SWALLOWED BY PAIN, AS HE SLOWLY FELL APART.

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one half of jayden had been looking forward to this day for little under a year. most of this longing to return to highschool had surfaced from the sheer yearning to escape from that hell people call rehab but also from the double-taking, head spinning desire he had fostered to see reagen. for once it wasn't the cocaine telling him what to do, what to think, how to act, who to be. he was just plain jayden now, the person he hadn't really been since he was thirteen, and all he wanted to do was see his best friend. a few things complicated this foolproof plan though. the first was the fact that he had no idea where reagen would be, and his phone had conveniently.. lost whatever credit he had once owned. the other, slightly more important thing was that he would be lugging a heavy suitcase around, and so most probably needed to dump it in his dorm. which would, obviously, mean facing his new roommate and being pulled in to have that whole introduction thing, which he'd really rather miss until .. well, later, maybe? yeah. later. that worked just fine for him.

on the other hand, the other, slightly smaller part of jayden was having second thoughts about this whole coming-back-to-highscool thing. it wasn't that he was hinting at preferring rehab; fuck no, he wouldn't go back there if you paid him, they left you no control over anything at all that you did, apart from eat, which jayden hadn't done much of just to, oh he didn't know, rub it in their faces or something. he wasn't sure though, all he knew was that he was never, ever, ever going back, and that he would much prefer to be in bristol high than anywhere near that place. but, still, there was just that tiny part of him that wondered whether he was doing the right thing. things wit him and reagen hadn't been great when he'd last seen her, and he didn't want to have to go all through that again. he didn't want to find that she'd completely moved on from him, however selfish that sounds. sure he wouldn't blame her, but still, he just couldn't imagine that.

really though, his return to bristol high wasn't just about seeing reagen again. it was mostly because although he'd only been in the school for his sophomore year, he'd met loads of people who'd become his friends and all that other jazz, and because his parents would've kicked him out if he hadn't gone back for his last year. well, it was his last year he guessed, so it couldn't be that bad - and if it was, well, he wasn't coming back so it didn't really matter. he could do whatever really, and it wouldn't effect him because he'd done most of his education really, and you didn't even need a proper education if you wanted to be part of a band; which had been his lifelong dream. some people said he was silly, other people told him he'd never make it but he was pretty fucking sure he would.

he hadn't been able to stop thinking over this all day, quietly torturing himself over the many things that could go wrong with his plan. he wasn't supposed to be up at the school until eight, so he stayed in bed, staring up at the ceiling. usually he liked his sleep, a lot, if you let him he'd stay in bed until two in the afternoon [ though sometimes that was just because he'd gone to bed at two/three in the morning]. before he'd gone to rehab though, he'd never slept at all. some people would say he was an insomniac, or had been, but no, he wasn't sure what it was. maybe it was because the drug's effects hadn't yet worn off but he'd never been able to get to sleep until it started to get light, and even then he was woken up for whatever reason a couple of hours after,. but no, usually he did like his sleep a lot nowadays, it was almost sacred, but he didn't waste his time sleeping, not today. he'd recently repainted his room, so it still kind of smelt of new paint, which was another reason why he couldn't get to sleep, it was giving him a headache and.. well, it smelt bad, okay? haha.

finally, though it didn't seem that long, his mum banged on his door, yelling at him to hurry up or he'd be late. mumbling some random obscenities under his breath, too low for anyone but him to hear, he managed to drag himself out o bed and managed to get into the shower quickly before his mother used up all the hot water, like she always did as he was always left with the cold water. he didn't usually mind, but today he did, for whatever odd reason. after getting dressed, and straightening his hair to painstaking perfection, he trudged down the stairs, stifling a yawn as though he hadn't wanted to sleep, he was still really tired, and it was weird. really though, he was just glad to be out of his paint-smelling room, out of this house, away from his parents,. they'd been acting weirdly around him ever since they'd somehow found out about his drug addiction, and he couldn't quite place it. whatever, he wouldn't have to worry about this crap for a whole year now, so there was no point thinking about it. he pulled up his jeans, he really needed to invest in belts but, oh well, he could deal until he'd gotten to the school, he dragged his suitcase into the car and slumped into the back seat, waiting impatiently for his mother to hurry up. though he'd been having second thoughts about this whole thing, they'd all vanished by now.

after what seemed like forever, but in reality was only about ten minutes as they didn't live too far away from the school, jayden said his half hearted goodbyes to his parents before dragging his suitcase into the school, it was kind of heavy but it was probably just him - he'd never been very good at sports, or whatever, none of that bullcrap, never had the patience for it. he just didn't see the point, so it was probably why there wasn't much of him [ and why he was so useless if it ever came to a fight.] he'd written his dorm number on his hand in red sharpie so he wouldn't forget it - because he had by now - he glanced down at his hand before pushing it into his pocket and tugging his suitcase over to where the dorms were, ignoring it as it trailed and scraped over the ground. once he found himself finally outside his dorm, he dropped his trunk with a heavy thud, and knocked before he could make up some excuse to not meet his new roommate. scuffing his trainer on the ground, he glanced up as the door was finally opened, and found his breath caught into his throat.

wait, wait. what? no, this couldn't be happening, and to be honest he wasn't sure if it was a good or a bad thing at first; nothing he had ever thought about his new roommate came close to the fact that she was his best friend. or, had been, was probably a better term to describe her, he wasn't sure where they were anymore. it was complicated. but no, nothing he had ever assumed about his roommate was as weird as this; sure the whole point of him coming to bristol was to see reagen again, but. he watched her huge smile vanish as she caught sight of him, and he felt kind of awkward, and also wishing really really hard that somehow he could go back ten minutes and instead do something silly like break into someone else's dorm so eh could sleep there instead as he felt his face dropping as well [not literally...]. he didn't like feeling that he'd ruined his best friend's good mood; and by what she was saying, she was as confused as he had been. 'um.'

[/b]he started, staring down at his shoes as if they'd become the most interesting thing in the world, until she began to speak again. at the sound of her voice, gradually getting a little bit louder and more happier, he couldn't stop the grin that was threatening to take over his whole face twitch up the corners of his lips lightly, before closing his eyes for a few seconds, and glancing up at her as he felt her pull her into a hug.

laughing slightly, he wrapped his arms around her a little bit tighter, burying his face in her hair and not answering her questions for a few seconds as she finally let go, dragging him inside. really, he hadn't expected this, none of this, only now she actually seemed really pleased to see him, and that made all of this so much easier. he glanced around the dorm, for an excuse not to say anything, before clearing his throat and finally mumbling 'uh. so. yeah. i got out of rehab and um. well. i decided to come back? i've really missed you reags, you know. i just. i'm really sorry, for all that shit that happened a couple of years ago.' he glanced up at her again, not really wanting to get into that subject, before jumping onto the bed that was apparently his and sitting down, bouncing slightly 'but! anyway! wicked room we have here, it's huuuuuuge. and the girls jeans? well, i just decided they were far comfier than guy's jeans. they also don't fall down when i wear them, so.' [/b]he grinned.[/blockquote][/blockquote]

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TAGGED ?! rini/ reagen <3
STATUS ?! hey its done!
WORDS ?! 1640. w00t :]
OUTFIT ?! grey drainpipe jeans and a band tee? idk?
LOCATION ?! the dormssss.
LYRICS ?! shinedown; 45.
PLAYING ?! i'm in love with a sociopath - i hate kate <3
NOTES ?! summary? "ramble ramble ramble HEY SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS HERE?! ramble ramble ramble"
CREDIT ?! _and_heartsxx of CAUTION!

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[* reagan landers]

i missed it all, i messed it up
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when reagan had first woken up that morning, she'd been uber excited to find out that she a new room, and a new room mate. now, as sh epulled open the door to see her best friend... or.... her old best friend? she wasn't sure at all with this. last time she'd seen him a year ago when his parents had sent him off to rehab. a part of her, a big part, wondered if they had told him that she had told them about the drugs. she wasn't too sure at all, and honestly, she was scared to find out, because rehab wasn't exactly a great place, she'd heard. and she felt awful about doing that to him, but she had known that he needed the help. now, this was just... awkward. what was she supposed to say? well, her mind sort of made up what she was supposed to say; it all just came out extremely randomly. most of her excitement at seeing him again took over that small part in her mind that was extremely scared to talk to him. she wasn't even stopping to give him time to answer those questions. she gave him no time at all before she jumped him. hey, she tackled him with her bike when she was seven, he should be used to her randomly tackling him.

feeling him return the embrace, she couldn't help but smile. she loved this boy too much. as she pulled away from him and pulled him inside, she got a good look at him. he looked different, but at the same time, he looked like the same jayden. her jayden. she watched him glance around their dorm ( their dorm ) before he actually said something, she turned around to look at him as she made herself comfy on the bed, pushing her suitcase out of the way. pulling her feet up underneath her, she looked at him as he continued. hearing him say he missed her, she grinned, about to say something else, when he continued. she looked down, tilting her head, deciding to just ignore that part. she didn't want to remember how she'd been an idiot and believed that he loved her, only for his drugs. "i missed you too, jay. we kind of just... stopped, you know? it was weird! my parents started to wonder what happened to you." she'd told them that jay was living with his uncle for some time; hey, her parents wouldn't exactly be happy to learn that their daughter's best friend had turned to drugs. that's not exactly what every parent wants to hear from their child, is it?

"i know, isn't it amazing? it's so much bigger than the one i had the last three years." it really was. her last dorm had seemed to much smaller. probably because she'd had it for years. she remembered how in her freshman year that she'd thought the dorm was big. course, then, she was shorter and skinnier and more awkward looking than she was now, but, hey, it helped change her outlook on dorms. she laughed, hearing his reason for the girls jeans. "hey, i have a roommate i can share my clothes with, and actually have to worry about them fitting them or not." she grinned. last year she had a room mate where she tried to share her clothes with her, and reagan's jeans had been too small for the girl. it had been funny; reagan's jeans hadn't fit her, and the girl's shoes and shirts were too small for reagan.

"so... how was... that place?" she frowned slightly; she always did this. she told herself not to bring anything up, but she ended up bringing up these topics badly. she was so stupid at times. "you don't have to tell me, you know! we can talk about other stuff! like... how i think i need to run you over with my bike again. it worked when we were seven." she grinned at him, laughing slightly. that was probably the best memory they ever had together. she remembered being so excited that she'd learned to ride her bike, and then crashing it into a kid, who turned out to be jayden, who was minding his own business and just walking down the street. it had taken two scraped knees, a bunch of tears from her and a bunch of apologies from her dad to his mom, to get the two to become the awesome friends that they grew up into.

"okay! so... so .... uuhh... " she shut up for a minute, scratching the top of her head. she'd been about to say something, but she really couldn't think of what she was saying. "ugh! i hate this." she frowned at her she had a one track mind all the time. she decided to distract herself, and him, from her stupidity. pushing herself off from her bed, she skipped over to his side of the room, making herself comfortable next to him. pulling her feet up on the bed, she wrapped her arms around his shoulders, getting him back in a hug. "this is going to be amazing! it's going to be just like how it used to be! just you and me, senior year. oh! christmas break, you have to come home with me. mom and dad have been asking about you, and i don't think i can keep saying your uncle edwardo is keeping you hostage in a city in alaska." she grinned at him; it was probably the stupidest story that she could have come up with, but her parents believed it. her seven year old's idea for a cover story sounded more convincing than reagan's story sounded.

"okay, i'm talking too much! shut me up, and tell me; how are you? are you.... did the time at... did it help?" she bit her lip, watching him. it was the one thing that was bugging her. she wanted to know that he was sober, and okay, and not on a road to a bad place that she didn't want him to be.

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POSTING STATUS finished
TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 1, 021
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
ANYTHING ELSE it's okay, it's good? xD

[jayden knight ?!]

what ever happened to the young man's heart?
SWALLOWED BY PAIN, AS HE SLOWLY FELL APART.

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there once was a time where reagen had been the only thing that had ever mattered to jayden, where he didn't care about anything as long as he was spending time with his reags. if he was completely honest with himself, none of that had changed either, not really. sure he cared about other things, and other people, and all that junk but. actually, he wasn't even sure whether the feeling was still reciprocated. he wasn't sure where him and reagen stood anymore; it was a confusing thing. on the one hand, they'd never stopped being best friends; on the other hand, they hadn't been together, properly, as best friends for four to five good, long years. it was a long time, and a lot of things had changed, so maybe she'd... gone off him, or whatever, for lack of a better term. maybe after all the crap that had happened with his 'drug addiction' or whatever people wanted to call it these days, she just didn't want to be close friends with him anymore. maybe they didn't know each other as well as he had figured they had, or maybe, possibly, he was just being stupid and worrying about all this for nothing. he did that a lot, overanalyze event he most simplest of situations, making them into one complication after another.

things didn't seem to be going too badly, not yet anyway. maybe one day when they decided they needed to actually go into one of those in depth conversations about their feelings, things would take a turn for the worse, maybe. either that or they'd get better, but for now he'd prefer not to get into one of those such conversations. it would be far too awkward, wouldn't it? besides, he wasn't sure whether he'd be able to get into all that stuff without a) trying to make a whole joke out of it all, to lighten the atmosphere, or b) ending up telling her far too much for them to ever go back to normal. and he wanted them to go back to normal, because they hadn't been normal, or okay for years and he really missed it. he meant every word when he told her he missed her. maybe it was even worse than the three years he'd spent in alaska, because at least then he'd been too drugged up out of his mind to care on most occasions. being cold, hard sober is no fun, not so soon after you've been drugged up all the time, and he still wasn't sure whether he liked the feeling. sure he wasn't sober all the time, he still got drunk and all that jazz, but it wasn't the same. but, it made reagen happy - or at least, he hoped it did - so, he really shouldn't complain.

he was pretty sure now though, that this hadn't been a bad idea. all his worries over whether things would still be the same, or otherwise, had vanished almost completely for the moment. nothing seemed to have changed, it was weird, but this seemed as though only yesterday they'd been thirteen, before all the shit happened afterwards, up until now. he was sure though, now, he wouldn't fuck this up, not again. he loved reagen far too much, and he hoped the feeling was indeed reciprocated- it was kind of obvious, though, by seeing just how happy reagen was to see him after the first few awkward moments of confusion. "i missed you too, jay. we kind of just... stopped, you know? it was weird! my parents started to wonder what happened to you.". jayden couldn't help but smile at this; he loved reagen's parents as well, though not nearly as much as he loved his reags. even when he'd very first met reagen, he'd liked both her and her dad, after the whole getting run over by the bicycle affair had happened. after the first few seconds, he'd been more amused than anything, and it was still one of his favourite memories; just imagine, if that had never happened, he might've never known reagen and, well. that was a possibility he didn't even want to imagine. he really couldn't imagine living totally without reagen. even when he was in alaska he'd still texted her, and emailed and talked to her on aim. it was only last year, when he'd been in rehab ,that they hadn't talked at all, which had made the whole situation even worse. but now, he could just forget all of it, every single bad memory from that place. he was back with reagen, and that's all that mattered.

'nice to know somebody missed me then,' he joked, in reply to her statement about her parents, before stifling another yawn and having another good look around the dorm. it really was big, maybe it was just him, they definitely hadn't been this big two years ago but it was probably just him; and even if it wasn't, lots of things could happen in two years. this was living proof. it was weird, almost as if reagen could hear his thoughts as she went on to answer his earlier statement about the room. sure it wasn't quite mind-reading, but. "i know, isn't it amazing? it's so much bigger than the one i had the last three years." he ginned again, her hadn't smiled this much in years it seemed 'yeah, haha, well maybe it's because we're big bad seniors and they seem to think we're far too important for the smaller dorms!' he said, tilting his head to one side in thought 'yeah, that must be it. we're too good for the other dorms.' he nodded; sure it was definitely not the reason why the room seemed to be bigger, haha, but it could well possibly be. whatever it was, jayden was pretty glad he was a senior, even if it only meant he only had one more year at high school before he was able to go out and do whatever the heck he wanted to do. sure it had to be legal, but that wouldn't matter too much, right? "hey, i have a roommate i can share my clothes with, and actually have to worry about them fitting them or not." jayden laughed slightly 'well, we can swap jeans then, sounds like fun,' he grinned; he was pretty sure they'd fit, anyway, for cocaine was the type of drug that made the weight almost drop off you, only seeing as he hadn't done it for a whole year, he'd put a bit back on. not much though, but whatever.

just when everything seemed to be going perfectly, reagen suddenly spoke up. "so... how was... that place?" he frowned slightly, staring down at his shoes again and fidgeting slightly. he didn't really want to go into that, not now, not ever, so he was relived when she hastily added "you don't have to tell me, you know! we can talk about other stuff! like... how i think i need to run you over with my bike again. it worked when we were seven." he laughed slightly again, bringing his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them and looking back up at her 'well, sure, or maybe we should do it the other way around, just to be fair,' he teased 'then we'll be quits!' he grinned as reagen began to speak, before forgetting what she was about to say. she'd always done that, he'd found it quite amusing as it never seemed to happen to him, not when he was sober anyway. sure he'd talk far too much and go off into a tangent instead of focusing on what the topic is, but next to reagen he didn't seem to say much at all - which was weird if he knew him, because if you gave him the chance he'd never shut up. and the things he talked about were amusing to listen to, mostly because of how much he rambled. it was more quantity than quality, haha.

"this is going to be amazing! it's going to be just like how it used to be! just you and me, senior year. oh! christmas break, you have to come home with me. mom and dad have been asking about you, and i don't think i can keep saying your uncle edwardo is keeping you hostage in a city in alaska." . he smiled brightly 'awe, you make it sound like a chick flick,' he said, releasing his legs and pretending to stick a finger down his throat and be sick as she came over to his bed and pulled him into another hug. he leant in against her side, shifting slightly so he could rest his head on her shoulder, yawning and adding 'pft, you could've thought up a better excuse for me,' he said, sticking his tongue out at her 'like, i don't know, i was kidnapped by ninjas. yeah, for a whole year! because they were torturing me for information cause i'm a secret spy. see, i'm so much more inventive than you,' he said childishly.

"okay, i'm talking too much! shut me up, and tell me; how are you? are you.... did the time at... did it help?" oh crap, back to this subject again, he shifted, turning his face so it was pressed against her neck and not speaking for a few minutes, trying to figure out quite how to answer that question 'um,' he finally started again, fidgeting again uncomfortably 'well, uh. i guess it worked. i mean, i'm not on.. you know anymore. so, i guess so? i think. let's talk about something different anyway,'

[/b] he said uncomfortably, quickly changing the subject 'so, reags, how've you been? crushing on anyone?' he teased, poking her in the side 'i'll have to check him out though, he's probably some loser.'
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TAGGED ?! rini/ reagen <3
STATUS ?! hey its done!
WORDS ?! 1651 xD wtf?
OUTFIT ?! grey drainpipe jeans and a band tee? idk?
LOCATION ?! the dormssss.
LYRICS ?! shinedown; 45.
PLAYING ?! bad girlfriend; theory of a deadman <3
NOTES ?! i think my posts seem to be more quantity than quality xD sorry.
CREDIT ?! _and_heartsxx of CAUTION!

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[* reagan landers]

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"now, why the bloody hell wouldn't anyone miss you?" she was honestly surprised in her mind how much she missed the boy. she hadn't seen him since the crap that happened a year ago, and ever since, she'd just pushed those thoughts of him to the back of her mind and told herself she wouldn't have to worry for a while. but of course, instead of being normal and not worrying, she spent more than enough time worrying about if he was okay, and if rehab was helping him. God, she was just... honestly, her life was almost in sync with his, she knew it. ever since she ran into him when she was seven and ended up crying her eyes out on him. oh, simple days.. why the hell couldn't simplicity be a part of life? at least hers. psh. she sounded like a girl in a freaking soap opera. shaking her head free of those stupid thoughts, she looked back at him in time to hear him call them big, bad seniors. "oh, heck yeah!" as if to proof is, she flexed her arm muscles... well, the somewhat muscle looking thing her arm was. "see? big and bad." but she couldn't keep that one up; laughing slightly, she shrugged. "maybe... or we're shrinking... or the dorm's growing... whoa, alice in wonderland moment right there." wow, she had a short attention span lately. well, whenever she was with jayden, she just seemed to... well, simply put, she didn't make herself calm down and act mature. she was... pretty much herself with him. "yeah! ... but i think you're skinnier than me!" she pretended to sound offended that he was skinnier than h er, but she was grinning, so she doubted she pulled that one off right.

yeah.. he didn't want to talk about it as much as she didn't want to talk about it. she hated how she always seemed to bring up bad topics. half thet ime she could just punch herself for saying half the things she said. she looked down at her Converse sneakers, pointedly looking anywhere but at him. but her bike comment seemed to help out; hearing him, she laughed. "okay! ... i didn't break any bones when i ran you over, did i?" she laughed as she looked back up at him. all she remembered was that she'd ran him over... and she was crying, and from what she thought now, he probably was trying not to cry when she ran him over. looking back on it, it had been pretty hilarious. oh well. now wasn't the time for reminiscing. now was the time to catch up with her best bud. "i do not make it sound like a chick flick.. i hate those." she stuck her tongue out at him. she honestly did; she couldn't still through chick flicks. she was a girl that could not stand to watch chick flicks; she wasn't normal, she admitted it. she laughed as he pretended to make himself barf, but she stopped when she felt his head on her shoulder. smiling as she felt him yawn, she laughed. "i'm sorry! i panicked; i didn't know what else to say." she frowned, even though he probably couldn't see. "what the hell, ninjas?! i might as well have told them martians from Pluto came to make you their ruler."

awkward... she bit her lip, looking around as though the walls around the room were suddenly so interesting. she couldn't help but squeal slightly, feeling his face pressed against her neck. ever since they'd both hit the age of thirteen they'd always been random with how they regarded each other. she'd often climb on his back, he'd sleep on her, she'd wrap her legs around his waist and make him lift her up, he'd often hide his face in her hair or her neck. it was just how things were with them, and it never changed. she liked the feel, actually; ever since she'd started liking him as more than a friend since she was fourteen, she noticed, and memorized, the most randomest things. such as the feeling of his face against her neck. god, she was pathetic beyond belief. she made herself look down at him as he started talking. biting her lip, she just looked down at him, smiling as he suddenly wanted to change the subject. she was thankful for that. she didn't know what she wanted to hear, honestly. ever since the drug thing had started, or since she'd realized that, she'd been worried about his well being more than anyone elses, more than herself. why else would she have told his parents about what was going on with him?

hearing his question, she laughed, squirming slightly as he poked her side. damn, she was sensitive in the side when she was younger, and she was still sensitive in the side now. slapping his arm, she looked at him, shrugging. "eh. no one yet. you know how i am! there's no one to punch yet." she pushed him slightly, making herself comfortable against his side. "what about you? any lucky girl caught mr. jayden knight's exclusive eye?" she looked at him, teasing him. she remembered how they'd tease each other about that stuff when he was in alaska.. except with him it had been penguins insteatd of girls. she remembered that, and then suddenly remembered what she'd asked him when he'd first told her he was leaving. "did you bring me a penguin?" she looked at him, a mock serious look on her face, but her lips were turning up slightly, so she figured he'd probably realize she was teasing.
looking around the room, she stood up randomly for a second. turning around to look at him, she raised an eyebrow. "dude, we could totally have the whole dorm to ourselves for a while!" she glanced at the two unused beds. as of right now. "we are totally decorating this room, like.. now. we're going poster hunting later." in her old room, her side of the room had been covered in posters. so many, for so long, that she didn't even remember what color the walls were. "so, it's a date later?" she raised an eyebrow at him, looking at him expectantly for a minute before turning around and going to her suitcase. she really should we unpacking... but she really didn't feel like it. so, reaching over, she closed her suitcase back up before lifting it and shoving it under her bed.

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TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 1,090
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
ANYTHING ELSE somewhat good? i like it. xD

[jayden knight ?!]

what ever happened to the young man's heart?
SWALLOWED BY PAIN, AS HE SLOWLY FELL APART.

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it was weird, really, just how close him and reagen were. literally, she was his favourite person in his whole world, and everybody thought it weird they were so close. it wasn't that they were complete opposites; no, they were alike in most aspects actually, which probably came from hanging around each other for so long. no, it was more surprising, at least to him it was, that they could still be so close after all the crap that had happened in the past few years, and all of it seemed to be his fault, it seemed. after him moving away, and becoming a junkie, then coming back, then going off again to rehab after his parents had somehow found out about his addiction, the thought of them ever becoming normal again as out of the question. so how had they suddenly picked up right where they'd left off four years ago, when so much had happened? how did they manage to act as though everything was still the same? he wasn't sure, it was weird, he knew that much, but weird in a good way. he wanted it to continue, obviously, but he really hadn't expected any of it. to be honest. he hadn't thought ahead on any of his plan; it was simply to get there, find reagen and sort everything out. only finding reagen had been easier than expected, and things had just suddenly sorted themselves out without him even having to try. on the one hand he was relieved everything was so.. so normal between them, but on the other hand he was so confused. he didn't show this of course, but it was something that really puzzled him. so much had happened, so why were they still best friends? he wouldn't blame her if she never wanted to speak to him again, and yet, she did, and she was over the moon that he'd come back. maybe he'd ask her someday. ask her why exactly she was so happy to see him. but not now. he wouldn't ruin this. not yet.

but, some things were better left unsaid for now, and that was certainly one of them. his curiosity wouldn't kill him, he could wait a few months before asking about that sensitive subject, about all of it. maybe he didn't want to know, maybe those things were better left unheard as well as unsaid. maybe he just shouldn't bother with asking her, anyway. maybe it was something stupid. maybe he was just overthinking on the subject; maybe it was something he was never going to find out. it was probably better off that way anyway, he was never good at this sort of thing. you know, the uncomfortable situations, the awkward silences, the penetrating stares; no, he didn't like it, not at all. he was used to never being serious, he could never take anything seriously, he was always joking about and he preferred it like that. he didn't like being sad or miserable, or anything like that. he didn't like feeling negative, but he seemed to, a lot lately, and well. it just wasn't right. it wasn't him, and the worse thing about it was that he didn't know how to show these sort of weird, annoying feelings either, so he kept it all up inside of him until it got too much. and then it was even worse.

he was snapped out of his thoughts as reagen began to speak. he did that a lot these days; space out and think to much and then miss half of what somebody was saying. it bugged a lot of people, namely his parents, but he couldn't help it. he was pretty sure reagen was used to it by now, but then again, he wasn't sure, and counted himself lucky he got the general gist of what she was saying. shrugging at her, he grinned 'i don't know? i guess i'm not that memorable,'

[/b] he said playfully, with a mock pout. he wasn't serious, not ever mostly, he didn't like it. it was so much easier to joke around and be happy all the time, rather than being serious and not being so happy all the time. so, yeah he might annoy a few people with his inability to be able to take anything serious quite as seriously as they would like it, but that wasn't really his problem, right? if somebody didn't like him, then he probably wouldn't like them back, and vice versa. maybe it was unfair he never gave those people a chance, but it didn't really matter. and yeah, he was rambling, again, and had missed half of what reagen had said, but he managed to work out what she was trying to say, grinning again 'oh yeah, aren't you sooo badass. next thing you know you'll be beating up little freshmen for their lunch money,' he said solemnly, shaking his head at her and tutting 'nah, i reckon the dorms must be shrinking. i don't feel i'd like to be much shorter than i am already,' he laughed; sure he wasn't ridiculously short, he was five foot five [ and a half, as he constantly liked to remind people, just in case they forget] but next to most people his age and quit a lot of the juniors as well, he was pretty fucking short. well, at least the guys, luckily he wasn't that short that all the girls were taller than him as well, haha. he didn't mind his height, most of the time actually, he'd prefer it over being really tall.

he grinned as reagent tried, and failed, to sound offended, and gave her a horrified look 'me? skinnier than you? never, look at all this muscle reags!'[/b] he said with a wink lifting up his top - not that he had any of course, haha 'comes from being a p.e superstar. pffft.' okay, now he was definitely messing around, if that wasn't obvious, but mostly because he was terrible at p.e. he'd never liked it, it was a waste of time if you asked him and he tended to not even go, preferring to bunk of and get a detention for it rather than be made to go and pretend to enjoy kicking a ball around or being tackled face first into the mud. it didn't really sound like fun, did it? and if it didn't sound like fun, it obviously wouldn't be fun, like science and homework and wildlife documentaries. they were all pretty useless as well, in his opinion. so it was probably why he didn't do any sports; he didn't even know how to ride a fucking bike for god's sake, mostly because he couldn't be bothered and after the whole thing when he was seven, didn't really want to, haha. 'i don't think so,' he said, cocking his head to one side and pretending to think 'well, i haven't sued you yet, so i guess not,' he finally said with a grin, losing the serious pretence. 'and yes, you do,' he said, sticking his tongue out at her again 'it sounds like something high school musical would come up with,' he said with a laugh. he hated chick flicks just as much as reagen [ and mostly any guy with pride left ] did, though he was still a sucker for disney movies. who wasn't? c'mon, you had to admit they were pretty epic - just not disney nowadays, they'd sold out and become infested with crappy teenybopper pop groups. he adopted a look of insult as she turned down his idea, though she probably couldn't see it with his head on her shoulder 'it was not a bad idea, though i don't blame the martians either for wanting me as their leader. i'd be a great leader,' he mused 'anyway, don't martians com from mars, not pluto? cause like, they start with mar...?' he asked, frowning slightly. yes, these definitely were the most important questions of the century.. or again, maybe not.

he jumped a bit when she squealed as he hid his face in her neck. he wasn't sure why she had, it wasn't the first time he'd done it, but then again he guessed the last time he had done it properly was a few years ago, before he'd gone off to alaska maybe. they always did this sort of thing though, there was none of that weird personal space people talked about when it came to them, because they were past having to sit a few inches away from each other to feel comfortable. but, there was still something he couldn't quite place. after he'd spoken there was a bit of an awkward silence. he had to admit, he really hadn't wanted to talk about any of this, but reagen had seemed to have wanted to. it was kind of annoying, not that he'd ever tell her, but they'd been fine up until now, and now? and now this uncomfortable silence that made him want to disappear or something, or have the ground swallow him up so he wouldn't need to keep sitting here. reagen didn't even seem to want to talk about this, which was kind of weird seeing as she kept bringing the subject up, and then looking guilty about bringing it up. usually he was so intune with his reags that he'd know exactly what was going on in her mind before she even began to speak, or act, or whatever, but for once he was just a little bit lost. sure if she wanted to bring the subject up, that was totally fair, she was probably just seeing whether she should just kick him out now if he was still on the drugs, but why she seemed just as happy as him to change the subject half way through.. no, he didn't get that. not at all.

finally though, the subject was changed after a few seconds of awkward silence, and he grinned as she squirmed and laughed; she'd always been kind of ticklish, but then again, so was he. he grinned at her answer, tutting and shaking his head 'awe, i'm sure there's lot of guys who must want you,' he said laughing, before she spoke again 'well, i wouldn't say about lucky, but.. no, not yet,' he said with a grin 'you're the only girl for me at the moment,' he teased, pushing her back slightly, before she asked him about her penguin. he pretended to look serious, saying solemnly 'awe i'm sorry, but it turns out that the penguins there were actually some mutant breed of penguins. they were half penguin, half vampire... and well, they were pretty fucking violent.' nodding slightly, he stretched out on his bed as reagen got up, for apparently no reason 'all to ourselves? yeah, i like the sound of that,' he grinned; he didn't want another roommate, now anyway, he was pretty sure he'd be kicking whoever it was out if anyone roomed with him and reagen anytime soon 'okay, we'll go poster hunting later, but only if you haven't gone mainstream and started liking rap and crappy pop music,' he said, raising an eyebrow and trying, and failing, to hide his grin. he didn't say anything, but nodded when she asked if it was a date, before yawning again and unlacing his hi-tops, pulling them off and throwing them lazily on the ground next to his bed[/blockquote][/blockquote]

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TAGGED ?! rini/ reagen <3
STATUS ?! hey its done!
WORDS ?! 1914. idk where three quarters of it came from?
OUTFIT ?! grey drainpipe jeans and a band tee? idk?
LOCATION ?! the dormssss.
LYRICS ?! shinedown; 45.
PLAYING ?! jasey rae (acoustic ) - all time low <3
NOTES ?! um. im sorry its so long o: idk what happened?
CREDIT ?! _and_heartsxx of CAUTION!

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"oh, psh. you are so memorable. i remembered you after all this time, and i saw that's pretty memorable. i barely remember this morning." honestly, it was true. she had probably the worst memory in her family. she couldn't even remember yesterday, honestly. she actually could remember that morning, only because she'd been so hyped on coming to school. she'd made her parents wake up and hurry up, and she hadn't really felt.. too bad about it. hello, first day of her last year, she was excited. her parents knew how she got when she was excited. hell, even after all this time parker probably still knew how excited she could get. nothing much about her had really changed... in fact, compared to her younger self, she was probably toned down a bit.. haha. that's just a bit funny,t hinking about it, since she seemed to hyped up now. maybe she hadn't toned down so much.. hm.. she looked back at him as he called her a badass, and she laughed. "psh, yeah. you know it. and of course. i mean, the freshmen are just, what... this tall." she held her hand to about her knee. "maybe... then we're totally having an alice in wonderland moment...." she shuddered. ever since she was little, that was teh disney movie she didn't like. it always scared her for some reason. especially that striped cat.. "you're not that short! psh, i think you're taller than me!" well, he was pretty short, but probably was taller than her. she wasn't really one of the ones that mocked him about it, but she liked pointing out how they were almost exactly the same height.


raising an eyebrow, she laughed as he pulled up his shirt to prove he had muscles. "oh, damn. you are one of macho weight lifters, aren't you?" hearing him say p.e. superstar, she tried not to laugh. "oh yeah. you know, not attending gym class must've been the key to getting those muscles, huh?" she remembered how he would hide, avoiding doing gym class. sehe'd often tried to get him to come to class, and sure, it worked for all of.. three classes? before he decided never to come back. well, it didn't really help that the teacher was one of those tyrant gym teachers who took off points if you were standing still in class. needless to say, he hadn't been a favorite teacher of either of them. she pretended to let out a sigh of relief at hearing that she hadn't broken anything when she ran him over. "psh. like you could sue me." she grinned at him "and i do not make it sound like a chick flick. and ew! high school musical is worse than chick flicks, hands down." she wasn't really a normal girl; she hated chick flicks, and she hadn't the stuff disney was producing nowadays. they hired teen actors who had no skill, and most of them tried to become singers, even though their voices were edited in so many ways that it was pretty pointless to become a singer, in her mind. damn, she was really opinionated at times. hearing his question about martians, she thought about it. "hm... then what do you call aliens from other planets? so would you call them plutonians?" ... how the hell were they having a conversation on this? psh, ever since they were little they'd always had the randomest of conversations; this definitely wasn't the weirdest one they've had yet.

god dammit, she hated herself at times. she was pretty much making these awkward silences appear. a part of ehr really, honestly wanted to know how everything went at rehab, but a big part of her was afraid to know, really. she wasn't sure why at all. a part of her was extremely curious about what happened, but a part of her didn't want to know, mostly because... well, she wasn't too sure. having kind fo ratted him out to his parents and getting him sent to rehab, she felt some sort of guilt about it. not some sort of guilt.. a crap load of guilt tha made her want to ask these questions just so she could feel better about it. damn, a year apart did change them. she knew she'd have to tell him one day about what happened, but she just wasn't too sure how he would handle that. from the way that he was regarding her questions, he didn't want to talk about this as much as she didn't honestly want to know how she'd fucked him over. "okay, i'm done with questions. if i ask anything bad for the rest of the day, you have to hit me over the head with her shoe, got it?" she was determinedly staring at the ceiling for this conversation. god damn, she needed to get her head checked out sometime. thankfully, the second he poked her side, she was forced to look at him; she'd always been ticklish, ever since she was little. they'd even have those stupid tickle fights when they were little and had sleepovers and they got into a stupid argument over something on tv.

"psh, don't i wish. nope, i'm happily alone. well, not as alone as i had been. i have my jay with me." she leaned against his side, grinning. hearing him say no one yet, she felt her grin soften into a smile. she honestly didn't know why she was happy to hear that. she'd liked him before, and ever since the years before, she'd thought she was over him... hm... she shrugged past it as she heard next sentence. "psh, you know it." she punched his arm as he pushed her back, but she looked at him, her head tilted as he talked about the penguins in alaska. she tried not to laugh, instead made a solemn face. "oh goodness... so, are you half vampire now, or what?" she pretended to ask in seriousness as she got off the bed, but she was certain that her voice cracked with some kind of laughter. "heck yeah. last year i had this roommate, and honestly, don't repeat this, she was so... ugh. i think she had OCD or something, she was fixing up everything she could. one day she'd refolded all my clothes and put them in color order." she shook her head. honestly, she was lucky she hadn't lost it. too much neatness was something reagan wasn't too good with, and she didnt need a girl she just barely knew messing with her clothes. she turned around to look at him as he talked about posters. "psh, no way. i still think rap needs to die, and crappy pop music needs to go to antarctica where there's no one to listen to it." she watched him throw his shoes onto the floor, and she smiled at how he seemed to be so laid back. "ugh, i'm tired." she complained before making herself comfy on her bed. staring at the ceiling, she looked over at his side of the room. "we're going out tonight. we're going to celebrate. you coming back, and our amazing luck at having each other at room mates. where do you want to go?" he was the special one here, he got to choose where they went.

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TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 1,224
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
ANYTHING ELSE decent, good? idk, you choose a word. xD

[jayden knight ?!]

what ever happened to the young man's heart?
SWALLOWED BY PAIN, AS HE SLOWLY FELL APART.

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jayden was pretty sure that, if he hadn't been best friends with reagen, he never would've come to bristol high. it wasn't that the school was a bad school; obviously it wasn't, it had way too many great reviews for anyone to think of turning it down if they were offered a place. but his parents didn't like boarding schools - his father had been to one when he was younger, only he'd been bullied for three years before he'd been transferred to a public school. it was why when jayden was in alaska, he'd just gone to a public school, but when they'd finally came back and they'd found out reagen went to bristol, the decision was made almost unanimously that he' go there too. it had been much easier that way as well, mostly because if he was kept in a house with his parents long enough they’d get sick of one another, only probably his drug addiciton would’ve been found out about sooner. he still wasn't sure quite how they'd found out about it. he'd been very good at keeping it a secret, and suddenly they'd known and had sent him off to rehab. the best bet was that somebody had told them about his drug addiction, but he still wasn't sure who the heck that was, his parents never mentioned who it was. and though he should probably be thankful to this person for, you know, telling his parents, he couldn’t bring himself too. not only did they make him spend a whole year not with his friends in school, but in fucking rehab but h was also pretty sure that because of that his parents were never, ever, ever going to treat him like a mature adult not that he was, obviously, but it'd be nice that somebody thought it. it made him pull a confused face just thinking about it.

sure, he didn't act like he was mature, not really. it depends on what you'd deem as mature. he was always mucking around, he never bothered with school, he drunk too much and partied all the time and used to be on drugs. yeah, maybe when you put it like that he didn't sound quite so mature? actually, he didn't sound mature at all. he wasn't embarrassed by any of it though, if he was completely honest. there were a lot worse people that he knew of, and besides, he' never wanted to be that mature anyway - mature people were boring, and they bugged a lot of people. actually, he didn't know that many mature people; yeah, he knew a lot of people who were probably more mature than him in some aspects, but that really wasn't that hard he guessed. even if he wasn't mature, it didn't seem like it mattered to many people; well, at least not reagen, who was really the only person that's opinion mattered to him right about now. 'pretty memorable?' he asked, with a grin 'i only get a pretty memorable? i'm offended,' he said, pouting at her and pretending to be insulted 'i still don't get how you can have such a bad memory,' he added, puzzled - he remembered most things, his memory was pretty good. sure big patches of his freshmen and sophomores years had disappeared completely, erased as if they weren’t there, but that was most probably down to him being so high when the events had happened that he couldn’t remember any of it. he was pretty sure, altogether, that he lost about a year of his life that way, but oh well. whatever he had missed, it couldn’t have been amazing, and he was going to worry about things he could never get back.

as she showed him exactly how small the freshmen’s were, he grinned 'better watch out, or we might squash them,' he teased, glancing down at their feet 'yeah, we could easily squash them under our feet, before you know it the floor will be painted with flat freshmens,' he said with a laugh. not that that would happen, obviously freshmens weren't that small - they at least came up to his hips if nothing else. of course they probably seemed small to him, not just because they really are that small but because.. actually, okay, maybe it was just because they were that small. 'yeah, might happen with the freshmens too, maybe they just shrink with every year,' he laughed; he hadn't actually minded alice in wonderland, unlike reagen who had hated it. sure it wasn’t his favourite disney movie by far, but it was alright. he hadn’t seen it in forever though, it wasn’t because he hadn’t had the time to watch it as they'd just had their summer holidays; though for half of that he was in rehab. but, no, he just hadn’t felt in the mood - he tended to watch them with reagen and he wasn’t sure why he didn't just watch them on his own either. but, they weren't half as fun without his best friend, and it was kind of sad watching them on your own, he guessed. 'well, maybe we’re just both short,' he said raising an eyebrow at reagen and grinning 'of course though, if you're shorter than me you're naturally a midget. sorry,' he said with a laugh. how short did you have to be, to be classified as small anyway? because if it was under six foot then maybe everyone was just short, but if it was under four foot then it'd probably only be those little kids just starting elementary school. but, who knows?

as he pulled up his shirt, to prove to her just how much nonexistent muscle he actually had, he grinned as he heard her speak 'oh yeah - and of course bunking off p.e helps,' he added with a roll of is eyes, as if it were obvious, pulling his shirt up even further as i to prove his point, right up over his ribs, which were easily visible. 'see? c'mon, look at that, you should bunk off p.e with me more often, and you'll become as toned as i am,' he said sarcastically. he had never liked p.e, and really had only gone into p.e three times since he'd started at bristol in his sophomore year. all three times reagne had dragged him along, and the time he’d spent in p.e had just proved to himself why he never went. he still ended up getting detentions anyway, for not doing enough work, so either way he was going to get one. he'd hated their p.e teacher anyway, he was one of those people who hated you if you weren’t good at sport, or couldn’t be bothered, or just didn’t like fucking sport. and seeing as that was really over half of their year, it hadn't been fun at all. 'and i could totally sue you,' he argued with a pout, snapping back into reality 'well, not now obviously, cause you didn't break any bones. but if you did...' he grinned; he hated high school musical just as much as reagen did, mostly just because it was crap. to put it bluntly, yeah. it was too cheesy and happy and full of bad music 'awe, but imagine if you put them both together,' he said, pulling a face 'ugh, that' be even worse, right? like... it'd be a bit like torture, watching it. they'd have to tape our eyes open and then.. i don't know, brainwash us into believing pop is good and gabriella and troy are meant to be.' sounded pretty scary to him.

as she asked about the aliens, he shrugged, trying to hide yet another grin. it was weird, how much reagen could make him smile just by being around her 'probably? unless. of course, because pluto isn't a real planet anymore, they don't deserve a name?' he asked in mock horror, his grin fading into a frown as the conversation was drawn back to his year at rehab. he was pretty sue that if it had been the other way round, and reagen had been the one to spend a whole year in rehab, he would want to know about it just as badly as she did now, but it still didn't stop him from staring unhappily at the thick carpet beneath him. this was really the only part of meeting up with reagen again he had been properly worried about, and the good reason to. reagen had a right to know what had gone on in the past year, just as he had the right to ask her what had happened in her junior year. it seemed weird now, that they'd missed out on so much of each other's lives. it felt kind of awkward, as if when they talked about the years they hadn't spent together, they didn't seem like best friends then, because best friends were supposed to be with you when all that crap went on, right? at least, that was how he saw it. he was just grateful ( and here he was going to sound really selfish, maybe he was, whom knows?) that reagen hadn't found a new best friend, and moved on from him. there was something about her, something that was probably due to more than just being best friends, only he couldn’t quite place it, that made him want her to think about him all the time, and yet he wasn't sure why. maybe it was because he had been thinking so much about her?

as reagen finally spoke, he stared up, the miserable expression disappearing from his face slightly, he nodded his head 'okay, but you'd better watch out, i have a whole bag of doc martins in my suitcase,' he teased 'so you'd better not ask anymore awkward questions.' it wasn’t a real threat, because actually he wouldn’t be able to bring himself to hit her, not properly at least. 'awe, happy being a single pringle?' he laughed, snuggling closer to her and yawning again, blowing on her neck 'and hey,' he added, as she smiled 'don't look so pleased that i'm still tragically alone.' he pretended to be hurt but couldn’t quite hide the smile that was building up. 'half vampire?' he asked thoughtfully 'huh.. well, maybe,' he winked, baring his teeth at her you'd better watch out at night,' he warned her with a laugh. no, he wasn’t sure where any of the thing about mutant penguins had come from, but then again, he was always ridiculously random when h was around his reags, it was like a two in one offer; the random package came hand in hand with her. he pulled a face as she described her roommate 'never fear, i'm not neat at all,' he laughed, swinging is legs off the bed and walking over to her suitcase, pulling it open and picking out the first thing that was in there, before throwing it at her, so it landed over her head 'there we go, doesn’t the room look so much nicer with that covered now?' he said wickedly, with a laugh, sitting back down on his bed and stretching sleepily 'good,' he said, in response to her thoughts on rap 'or i might have had to kill you,' he said with a grin. 'and ugh me too,' he said, yawning theoretically as if to prove his point 'i say we go to sleep now,' he decided, raising an eyebrow 'you agree? and uh.' he stopped, thinking for a minute; he wasn't an expert on places around sandusky, mostly because he'd been there for just about a year 'we couuuuuld...we could go to that rollercoaster place, cedar point?' he said with a laugh 'and see just how much of a wimp you’ve become since i was here last,' he teased.

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STATUS ?! hey its done!
WORDS ?! 1979. my posts seem to be getting longer.. and crappier xD
OUTFIT ?! grey drainpipe jeans and a band tee? idk?
LOCATION ?! the dormssss.
LYRICS ?! shinedown; 45.
PLAYING ?! nobody puts baby in the corner - fall out boy <3
NOTES ?! ...... yeah,this is kind of rambly and sucky, sorry =P
CREDIT ?! _and_heartsxx of CAUTION!

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[* reagan landers]

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turning to look at him as he repeated her words, she grinned at him, even though he was pouting at her as though he were mad. "okay, okay, okay. you are the most memorable weirdo that wears girls jeans that i have ever met. better?" she smiled at him until he mentioned her bad memory. "i'm not too sure.... i remember my parents saying that i fell a lot when iw as little... and my uncle said my dad might've dropped me on my head once in the crib by accident... i'm not too sure. all i know if, i can't remember anything before eight years? nine..? i think... " she shrugged. "oh well! i remember the extremely important stuff, like who i am, my birthday, you, family.... that dog that used to live across the street and chase me when i rode my bike..." she shrugged. her memory was pretty bad for a girl. when the time mattered, she would remember it like her life depended on it. with other thinsg, she absolutely could not remember for the life of her. and everything before the age of eight was fuzzy to her, which was pretty weird.. she wasn't sure why... the only thing she remembered earlier than eight was that she had run over jay with her bike and cried all over him.

"oh, psh. yeah, we can. my size five and a half feet'll totally squash them all in one step." she laughed as he did. they had these stupid ideas and they always made her laugh. they usually ended up talking about the stupidest of things. this was definitely one of them. "i swear, they do! i know i wasn't that short when i was in freshman year! if i was... then i had a freaking amazing growth spurt." she laughed at the thought of her growing five inches in the middle of the night. "maybe......and no way! i'm taller than you." she grinned at him, a superior kind of look, but that totally failed at the thought of being a midget. "i'm above four foot eleven, thank you very much. i'm no midget." she nodded her head at him. psh. why the hell did she know the legal height for being a midget, she didn't know. see, this was the funny thing with her. she knew the pointless, stupid stuff that she probably wouldn't ever need in her life, but she couldn't remember important stuff at all.


"of course. i guess i'm gonna have to skip p.e from now on if i want to get muscles like you." she laughed as he pulled up his shirt so that she could see his ribs. she shook her head, poking him in his bare side. "i don't want to look that toned. i like not showing my rib cage to the world." she crossed her arms for a second only to uncross them as she stretched her arms out in front of her, yawning. damn, she was tired. her hyper energy at seeing jay was dying, and it was more natural now; not the creepy energy she had that made her seem as though she were high. she often had that energy, but it eventually died out on her. "psh, why would you wanna sue me? i'm lovable, and huggable... and nicer than you." she smiled an innocent smile at him. she looked at him as he said put the two together, and she tried to in her mind, and she let out a shudder. "ugh. never in my mind again." she pretend to shiver at the thought of it. course, it wasn't so bad in real life, but in her mind, and probably jay's, high school musical was already the worse thing anyone above the age of seven could watch. actually... no. "no, imagine it with hannah montana... oh God..." she covered her eyes, as though just seeing a disturbing image of a forty year old man naked. "that's just disturbing.." damn, now all thsi was in her mind. "let's talk about mickey mouse! he's adorable and sweet and honestly sings better than any disney star nowadays." she loved mickey. when she was five she had the biggest obsession with mickey. she had a mickey doll that was bigger than her, and probably jay, put together. well... bigger than them when they were five. if she knew him then. now it came up to her thighs, so it wasn't as tall and creepy. but mickey was still her favorite.

she shook her head at his statement about pluto. "screw what they saw. we all know that pluto is a plenet. those scientist people are just stupid. you and i both know that pluto is a planet, and now that you make me think they do need their own name..." she stopped, as though in thought, but she was trying not to laugh. "Plutonians? does that work? unless you can think of a better one?" she shrugged, forgetting that his head was on her shoulder. oh well. she looked down at him as he mentioned his doc martins, and she laughed. "okay, okay. no more awkward questions from reagan. and to be fair, you can ask... however many awkward questions i asked you." she was done with her being nosy. if he watned to tell her anything about what happened with him, he'd tell her. she wouldn't force it out of him. that wasn't the kind of girl she was. she wasn't like that to anyone, even if it was her best friend. hearing his question, she snapped herself out of her thoughts, laughing. "yup. single as a lonely pringle in the box." she felt her smile growing slightly as he blew on her neck, and she looked down at him as he talked. she tried to hide her smile but she couldn't. "i'm sorry! but hey, it just means that i can approve of whichever girl you decide to go after." she honestly was serious. well, mostly. no way she would actually approve, more than likely. she was pretty selfish, and knowing that she liked the boy that was snuggled against her, his face buried against her neck.

as she stood up, she heard hs question, and she turned around as he showed her his teeth. hearing him, she pretended to look scared, but she felt the corners of her mouth turning up. she couldn't help but smile. whenever she was with the boy, she couldn't help but smile at all. he was her other half, even though their personalities were almost exactly similar. "thank goodness. if you suddenly turned neat, i swear i would cry." she honestly would. she wouldn't be able to handle neatness. she wasn't too good with that. she was about to say something, but she shut up when he started walking over. she looked at him, her head tilted, an eyebrow raised. she watched him reach into her suitcase, and soon she felt her Mayday Parade shirt on her head. pulling it off, she stuck her tongue out at him as he walked back to his bed. "meanie." she threw it back into her suitcase as she made herself comfortable on his bed as he did thes ame on his. hearing his suggestion, she shook her head. "no sleeping! it's only like... eleven in the morning! how can you sleep?! we have so much to do!" she smiled at him, doubting he would agree. but when he started answering her question, she thought about it. "psh, i have no become a wimp. fine. we're going tonight." she grinned at him. "you're not goign to chicken out on me, are you? we could just go to some safe, little restaraunt for you?" she smirked at him, waiting to see what he'd say.

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POSTING STATUS finished
TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 1,301
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
ANYTHING ELSE it's okay? i kinda likee it? xD

[jayden knight ?!]

what ever happened to the young man's heart?
SWALLOWED BY PAIN, AS HE SLOWLY FELL APART.

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s there was something about reagen that hadn't changed at all, even though she'd long since lost the awkwardness she'd had in sophomore year. it was weird really. sure she'd changed, but at the same time she hadn't. she looked different, yet she still looked the same, in a way. she looked as amazing and pretty as ever, and yet she looked even more so, and maybe it was just him imagining it, but she kind of almost looked really fucking sexy. things had definitely changed between them, and though he knew she was definitely still the same, she'd grown up a lot since they were both fifteen and it was kind of strange to actually, finally, realize that. whenever he'd pictured her before he'd arrived, he'd always had the fifteen year old version of her in his head, and sure she hadn't changed much looks wise, she still had... and yeah, he was confusing himself. it was a confusing concept though, he reckoned. how can somebody change, yet not change at the same time? why did girls have to be so confusing? haha. no, seriously, he was being pretty serious here. with girls, there were always these extra meanings that you had to figure out yourself. nothing could ever be a simple thing, or simply a no-strings-attached relationship. they had to go over that junk about what exactly they were, and plenty of times he'd really wanted to say 'well, we're not anything, and we never were...' but then they got offended and claimed you were being unfair and a typical boy. yeah. girls were so confusing.

reagen wasn't. no, she wasn't, but maybe that was because they'd spent so much time together he'd kind of tuned into her way of thinking. he knew what she was thinking, sometimes [ or at least, he could guess.], and he knew what she would do in situations, and whether she was happy or otherwise, and all that sort of stuff. he understood her better than he'd ever understood himself, however cliché that sounded. she was just less confusing than he was, he never really did get himself. it was weird, as well, just how much his own thoughts were confusing him. he was making absolutely no sense, at least he didn't think so, he was a weird person, and that was definitely an understatement. he never really did get why anyone even liked him - you had to understand someone to like them, at least a little bit, right? and if he himself couldn't understand him, then surely no-one else could. he wasn't that amazing a person anyway so maybe it was better if he just let people like him without really understanding him. it was better than them understanding him, and not liking him.... of course, reagen understood him, at least she seemed to, and she liked him all the same. maybe some of his weirdness had rubbed off on her. she was probably the reason he started wearing girl's jeans, and eyeliner. all her fault. screw the comfortable crap.

he looked up as she spoke, and grinned. apparently his face wasn't used to smiling this much because it was hurting slightly from all this grinning bullshit, but then again nobody had ever made him smile this much, not like reagen. geeze he was sounding like a built in reality tv show at the moment, complete with overly cheesy quotes and confusing sentiments nobody really gave a damn about. 'oh yeah, but i would've hoped i was the only weirdo that wears girl's jeans that you've ever met,'

[/color] he said with a grin 'but obviously i'm more important than any of those other losers, because i'm your best friend, duh.'[/color] even as the words had left his mouth, he had wished he hadn't' said them, mostly because he actually still wasn't sure whether they were best friends, or close friends, or whether they were now complete strangers with one another. both were likely, they hadn't seen one another for a whole year, and yet they'd managed to get back into the comfortable relationship they'd always been in, so what did that make them? majorly screwed, he guessed, until they could sort out whatever it was. he gathered that that probably wouldn't be until he finally told her about the whole rehab crap, but as that didn't look like it would happen for a long time, it seemed they'd have to put up with the awkwardness of not really knowing just how they were supposed to act around each other.

he couldn't help but smirk slightly as she talked about her bad memory again 'dropped you on your head? awe, your dad never seemed like a drunk whenever i saw him,'[/color] he teased, sticking out his tongue at her again 'and woah, i swear that dog must be dead by now. i think somebody ran him over,'[/color] he said thoughtfully 'but anyway. yeah. i'm definitely pretty important to remember, right? screw your birthday,'[/color] he said with a laugh. 'i'd still remember it anyway, so you wouldn't have to worry about it,'[/b][/color] he shrugged nonchalantly. his memory wasn't amazing, he'd already clarified that, but it was good in some aspects; remembering the important things, or remembering the things he really wanted to remember, like when he actually bothered to study for tests. okay, so he didn't mean to be so lazy, or so silly, and not revise for tests. he just forgot, or procrastinated, which was one of his major flaws. sure he'd keep telling himself he'd do things, only he never did; it was probably why he had so many detentions. none yet though, which wasn't actually a surprise seeing as he'd been here about ten minutes. but, if you ignored that fact, no detentions was a very good thing to have. yeah, he'd look at it that way. no need to mention how long he'd been there for. one time he actually had got a detention ten minutes into starting a new school year. he'd also been thrown out of the class five seconds into t he lesson, but that so was not his fault. totally.

he shrugged again as reagen continued 'you never know. just wear a pair of steel-toed boots and it'll be ridiculously easy.'[/color] he laughed 'make you look like a total twat, but i'm sure it'd be worth it. maybe.'[/color] sure most people probably didn't have these conversations. most people probably didn't even think about having these conversations. but him and reagen was far from being normal, or 'most people.' normal people were boring anyway. they were so predictable and.. well, normal. they were the sort of people who never tried anything different and comfortably sat in the rut they'd built for themselves, never wanting to try anything new or be anything different. it was kind of sad really, but in a way it was kind of sensible. but not really. there he was again, confusing himself, or contradicting, maybe a bit of both. 'well, you probably were around that height,'[/color] he grinned 'it's what happens when you get dropped on your head. you're fated to be small for the rest of your life.'[/color] he raised an eyebrow at reagen's next statement 'i'd ask how you know what the official height for a midget is, but... i'm not sure i want to know,'[/color] he grinned 'is that what you've been made to do, bored out of your brain because i've been away? research midgets?'[/color] he teased.

he nodded in agreement as she spoke 'yup, one way ticket to eternal skinnyness like me,'[/color] he said, gesturing to himself 'i'll do it with you. so i have a reason to skip p.e for once - "i'm helping reagen stay fit."'[/color] he grinned, giggling and squirming slightly as she poked him in the side 'reckon that'll fly with mr whatshisname?'[/color] he stuck his tongue out at her as she carried on, and tugged his shirt down again 'awe, you know you really do, though if somebody's trying to break your ribs then you're screwed because they can see them easily,'[/color] he said thoughtfully 'lucky you don't have many enemies yet,'[/color] he joked. 'me, on the other hand, i'm screwed.'[/color] he mimicked her yawn and grinned 'wow, never knew i was that boring,'[/color] he said, pretending to sound offended 'nicer than me?'[/color] he said, with a look of mock shock 'naw, never. i'm the nicest person around. i gave a hobo a hug yesterday...'[/color] he smirked 'so there. and ew..' [/color]he said, grimacing at the thought of chick flicks, high school music and hannah montana together 'fuck i might have to kill myself if that ever happens,'[/color] he said seriously, before continuing 'mickey mouse? i always preferred goofy,'[/color] he shrugged 'he was much cooler. mickey mouse just went around in a pair of pants. goofy actually had class; he even wore a hat,'[/color] he said with a grin 'you can't beat that! and he didn't have that annoying voice either..'[/color]

he grinned 'awe yeah, but we're not exactly clever are we? so what would we know?'[/color] he teased, before correcting 'actually, no. you're clever. i'm not. plutonians?'[/color] he pretended to think for a second 'well...i can't think of anything better, but we can call them that for now.'[/color] how they'd even gotten onto this subject he didn't know. they always did this, striking up the weirdest of conversation in the middle of no-where. it was part of the many reasons why he loved reagen so much. 'good,'[/color] he said with a nod , before thinking 'well, i can't think of many awkward questions i'd like to ask now, but i'll bank them and ask you them in public places and you'll have to answer me,'[/color] he said with a wicked smile 'and awe, poor pringle,'[/color] he said, pretending to be sad 'oh well. we don't need anymore fucking pringles, we're okay as we are now,'[/color] he grinned and yeah, but i don't see that happening anytime soon,'[/color] he shrugged 'think i might be gay,'[/color] he said with a laugh, wrapping an arm around her neck and breathing in her scent. she smelt nice, but it wasn't the kind of -i've-just-drowned-myself-in-perfume nice, it was more of a natural nice, which was much nicer if you asked jayden. but then again, what did he know. obviously girls knew best, like always [ and here was the part where he rolled his eyes] and if they decided choking themselves with perfume was the way to go, he couldn't really argue. they'd probably bite him or something. or render him infertile.

he pretended to look shocked as she carried on 'awe, don't cry, it's okay, i'm as messy as i always was. in a few days this room will be inhabitable; we can get a head start if it make you happy,'[/color] he grinned at her, yawning and trying, but ailing, to stifle it with his hand. slumping back down onto his bed and staring up at the ceiling, he grinned 'oh, but you love me for my meanness, right?'[/color] groaning slightly, he yawned again 'quite easily! i was up at like. five in the morning. it's too early to be awake,'[/color] he mumbled sleepily huh, well let's see. and i so will not chicken out on you. i'm a man, i can prove it if you want,'[/color] he smirked 'but okay. no getting out. you, me and some badass rollercoasters tonight. is it a deal?' [/color]
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TAGGED ?! rini/ reagen <3
STATUS ?! hey its done!
WORDS ?! 1909 :]
OUTFIT ?! grey drainpipe jeans and a band tee? idk?
LOCATION ?! the dormssss.
LYRICS ?! shinedown; 45.
PLAYING ?! madina lake - lets get outta here. <3
NOTES ?! ...... finally FINALLY finished!
CREDIT ?! _and_heartsxx of CAUTION!

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[* reagan landers]

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things were different. in so many ways. it was honestly kind of odd how she noticed this. from anyone else's view, everything would seem the same, but it honestly wasn't the same at all. thought hey were acting as though they were fifteen years old again, there was a definite awkward ness in their current conversation. maybe he didn't notice it, but she sure did. well, in her mind, it would have been awkward if you told your best friend that you loved himmore than just a friend and he just said it back for stupid drugs. that was probably the one freaking memory that she remembered that she honestly did not want to remember. that was just the awkward thing about the whole thing, honestly. sure, they were pretty much best friends now,; nothing seemed to change, and maybe to jayden it wasn't any different, and maybe it honestly wasn't any different, but in reagan's mind there was just... just something awkward in the room. she just wasn't too sure what yet. it was all the same, wasn't it? she should just treat it as though he came back from a year long vacation... but she couldn't at all. shaking thoughts out of her head, she looked at him as she saw him, grinning, and she couldn't help but smile unconsciously. he was never really one to smile a whole lot. but whenever they were together he always had a wide grin on his face, and she loved it. it made him look years younger than he was. what the fuck.. she sounded like she was the main character of some soap opera where the girl was in love with her best friend. ugh..

"well, i think you are the only one, so no worries. you have no competition at all in that department. i'll tell you when i find someone." she grinned at him as she heard him again, and she felt her grin soften a bit. "of course. best friends." were they? after three years in alaska for him, and then a year of rehab caused by her, in a way, were they still the best friends that they'd been since they were seven? she wasn't sure at all. sure, the way they acted was perfect, but she could feel that awkward thing. didn't most best friends go through some awkward thing? she hoped they did... if not, then she had no idea where they were actually going to be once they caught up with each other. looking down at him, she forgot about how awkward stuff might be happening when she heard him. "shut up! mom said he was a little giddy whenever i was little... or maybe just drunk and we never knew..." she pondered the thought as though she were serious, even staring at the ceiling for added effect, but she grinned as she looked back at him.

"hey, my birthday's just as important as you. without a birthday, i wouldn't be here to be your best friend." she grinned, shoving him slightly. psh. in her mind, even if she was reagan and was a past life or something, she was certain that they would still be best friends. it would probably just be different in some weird way. she wasn't too sure on what she was thinking anymore. her mind tended to wander off a lot. this was one of those times. she remembered the first day of sophomore year when her and jayden had the same class together, and had gotten himself kicked out before the class was even halfway over. she remembered just laughing at that, even though she felt sort of bad about it. well, it was funny! who gets kicked out of their first class of the year five minutes in? well, apparently jayden... though she didn't bother bringing that one up again.

hearing his suggestion, she rolled her eyes, trying to even picture herself wearing steel toed boots. hell, she couldn't even picture herself in boots either. "but i look short and elf-like in boots." she scrunched her nose thinking about that. "why not you? i think steel toed boots would work for you." she grinned a teasing grin at him, trying not to laugh at the ridiculous nature of this conversation. what best friends talked about steel toed boots? not normal ones, that was for sure. but jayden wasn't normal by any means, and reagan really wasn't normal either, if she thought about it, but hey, their weird conversations were just normal for them and weird for other people. she looked up at him as he mentioned her being dropped on her head. "hey! not everyone who was dropped on their head is destined to be short. i mean, look at ..... uuhm.... hmm... " she tried to think of a person t hat that had happened to, but she absolutely could not think of one. "you know what, i'm not that small. i'm just as tall as you are." she stuck her tongue out at him, pushing his shoulder. but she tilted her head at his statement, and she rolled my eyes. "how do you not know the legal height to be a midget? i mean, psh, kowing that means you're just that awesome. .... so you're not that awesome?" she shrugged nonchalantly, though she was smiling slightly.

laughing as he talked, he shook his head. "wait, so just because you can't see my ribs, i'm not skinny?" she crossed her arms, pretended to be insulted, but that didnt work out too well. she grinned at his reason. "oh, i'm sure that'll go through extremely well." she stretched her arms above her head as she heard his statement, and she cringed at the thought. "that could lead to easily broken ribs... and that's just not fun." she shook her head at that thought. all she'd heard was that breaking your ribs was painful, and she just didn't want to know how that felt. "yup! well... none that i know of... " she thought back. she was pretty sure she had no enemies... if she did she had no idea what she did to deserve enemies. she turned her head back to jay's face as she heard his statement. "you're not boring! ...." she got a thoughtful look on her face, grinning slightly. she nodded her head as he repeated her words, but she laughed at the hobo comment. "psh. that's nothing special! i hug hobos whenever i see them." she gave him a superior grin, though it wasn't too true. she gaev a few hobos hugs, but the ones that didn't look like pedophiles. those hobos weren't the best to give hugs to, she learned. hearing his commenting on the horrible thought of highschool musical, chick flicks, and hannah montana together, she nodded her head. "don't do that! ... and if you do, take me down with you. it's not fair for me to suffer alone." she frowned at him, poking him arm repeatedly, as though that was a good punishment for even considering killing himself alone from that torture... that didn't sound right in rea's head. but that didn't matter; the minute she heard him compare mickey to goofy, she let out an exaggerated gasp, covering her mouth. "you.... i dontt know how we are friends. mickey is just adorable! and goofy was just.... goofy. he made no sense to me... no, that was donald..."


she had a sarcastic remark ready on her tongue, but hearing his next sentence, she grinned. "awe, you're clever... in your own, little way." she shrugged an innocent shrug at him, smiling as he gave into her name. "hey, it fits. martians are from mars, plutonians are from pluto. and earthlings are from earth. see, what else could we call them?" why the hell were they even talking about this, anyways? she wasn't too sure at all. her and jay managed to get onto the weirdest of topics, and they always managed to keep the weird conversations going on with straight faces. there was either something wrong with them, or they were just that amazing at being random best friends... probably a bit of both, in her mind. she made a face at jay as he talked about awkward questions. "you're so mean." sticking her tongue out at him, she stood up from the bed, pacing slightly. she wasn't able to sit still for too long; either she got bored, or her foot fell asleep. this time, both of them were the reason. she nodded as he said poor pringle, but she couldn't help but laugh. "when have we ever been okay, jay?" she stopped pacing for a second. "oh, hey, that rhymed!" she noticed the painfully obvious things at time, like that. she was just like that, pointing out stupid stuff that no one would really care about. hearing his theory of why he hadn't found himself a girl, she laughed as she sat back down next to him, just in time for him to wrap an arm around her neck. at the same time wrapping an arm around his waist. "nah, i doubt that. though if it's true.... we should get a guy rooommate with us instead of a girl." she nodded her head at her own idea. "i think that'll work out just perfectly. instead of two more girls or a guy and a girl, we get two new guy roommates, and there we go. i think it works out perfectly." psh. she could be a bit flirty when she wanted to be. jay probably hadn't really seen that part of her yet. he was in rehab when she'd dated jasper demetrius last year, though that was so short lived that she didn't even bother bringing it up. it just left her with a great friend.

"not now! i want some memory of how this place looks before we trash it." she grinned at him before going over to her bed and making herself comfortable, lying on her stomach. swinging her feet back and forth in the air, she looked at him as he spoke. "oh yeah, because you being mean is just absolutely lovable." surprisingly, that was true. even if he was a complete jackass, she would still love him. there was no way to change that. even if he had told her to fuck off, she would probably still love him. they'd gone through too much in ten years to throw that away.... wow, she really did sound like a cheesy soap opera. she needed tos top thinking like this. instead, she made herself focus on what he was saying. "psh, five in the morning isn't to-- yeah, that's early." even she, who had energy even when she was asleep, could not wake up that early even if she was paid to. "fine, i see your point." she stuck her tongue out at him, resting her head on the bed. she was now staring at the wall on her left as she heard him. "you say that now. we'll see." she smirked as she turned her head back towards him. "course, i'm not going to chicken out either. it's a deal." she nodded her head, as though that were good enough to keep the promise. "and if you do chicken out, you have to buy food. .... mostly because i'm broke." she admitted lamely. she hadn't started work yet, so she was still pretty broke. her dad gave her enough money to last for a day, but she had kind of already used it the minute he left. she was sort of bad with that sort of thing.

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TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 1945
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
ANYTHING ELSE my...longest... yet. XD -is proud-

[jayden knight ?!]

what ever happened to the young man's heart?
SWALLOWED BY PAIN, AS HE SLOWLY FELL APART.

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sometimes, jayden had decided, it was weird how everybody thought him and reagen were going out. not in a bad way, of course, but he reckoned it was quite obvious to see they were just friends. people kept coming up to him giggling, and asking how long him and reagen had been going for, and it was really stupid; they didn't act like lovers around each other, right? sure they'd sit one each other's laps and nuzzle each other's neck, and sleep on each other but they'd always done that, it wasn't a sign they were going out or anything. yet jayden wasn't sure why, even after countless people had voiced the same question, he still wasn't bored, or annoyed, whenever he hear them. he wasn't going to go so far as to admit that he liked the thought that people believed they were going out, but it'd never happened - even he was smart enough to see that, even if both of them had wanted it, which, obviously, he didn't. no, that'd be far too awkward, he couldn't think of reagen like that, it would probably be considered incest or something, they were that close - or at least, they had been that close. he didn't mind thinking about the idea sometimes though, when he was alone his thoughts often drifted to reagen, and from there something along the lines of what he'd ever do if they went out, or sometimes onto the subject of 'what would happen if somebody else went out with reagen?'. he didn't like that subject as much, because he was firm in the belief that nobody would ever be good enough for reagen, least of all him. he knew it, he'd admit it freely - there was no way he, or anyone else or that matter, would be good enough for reagen. he was a walking, talking disaster waiting to happen and he was too fucking epic to be messed around by some guy. it was why he was kind of glad there seemed to be nobody in the picture yet. because then he wouldn't have to get onto the uncomfortable subject of why he wasn't worth reagen.

he wasn't quite sure where all these feelings had come from. feelings that reagen shouldn't go out with anyone less than fucking god. she was probably better than him anyway, he hadn't met god but from the pictures his r.e teacher had showed his class [ before he'd stopped going to the stupid class. he wasn't religious, he didn't give a fuck about the father and the son and the holy ghost or whatever it was. there was no point learning about things that he was never ever going to use] he didn't seem like a particularly attractive guy. maybe if he shaved or something, but nah, he might be holy but he wasn't good enough for reagen.; he couldn't say why he wasn't good enough, it was as if it didn't need to be explained, that naturally reagen needed to have the most amazing guy in the world to be next to her, and just as sure of that, he was sure that there was really nobody who could be that good. maybe reagen would have to settle for second best or something, because nobody really in ohio deserve her, and probably nobody in the whole entire world. it was even more funny, then, that people seemed to think him and reagen were going out. he wouldn't do that to her. he'd probably just drag her down into the fucking rut he was stuck in, and at the very least make her hate him forever, and he didn't like to comprehend that. they were best friends. that was it. best friends, and nothing else. because, really, that was what they were best at. being best friend, two halves to a whole. they didn't need to go around screwing with each other's heads and fucking each other around, like he knew would happen if they were 'together'. no, he wouldn't do that to her, no matter if nobody else was good enough. she deserved so much better than some kid fresh out of rehab.

he moved his jaw gingerly as his smile faded away, yeah, it was as if smiling was unhealthy or something, it hurt when you did it too much, like now. sure people say it takes more muscles to frown than to smile but it still didn't hurt if you constantly were miserable, right? because he'd been pretty depressed all of last year and his jaw had definitely not hurt this much. whatever though, he was cool with it if it meant staying with reagen. he was cool with anything if it meant he got to stay with reagen - fuck, he sounded so cheesy, it made him want to get up and bash the cheesiness out of his head, only he'd look pretty silly if he just did that now in front of reagen. he couldn't really explain anyway, there were things that happened in his head that should just really be left alone - nobody really wanted to see inside his head, it was a pretty messed up place if he did say so himself. he was also pretty certain in the fact that, a) it wasn't such a good thing to think as much as he was doing now, and b) it was downright rude as he kept missing parts of what reagen was saying, and if he was telling the truth and reagen was the most important person in his life, so important that he constantly thought about her, then he should at least be able to snap out of his rambling thoughts and listen to her properly, right? shaking his head slightly, as if to clear his head of his distracting thoughts, he blinked 'haha, well, when you do make sure i can kick their ass properly, otherwise you might forget about me and move onto this other girl's jeans wearing weirdo,' he joked 'though i'd hope you'd choose me over anyone else?' he added, raising an eyebrow in mock seriousness. as reagen spoke again, he frowned slightly, his smile fading. it seemed as though she was as unsure about the whole best friend thing as he was. he'd been hoping she would've been much more confident in them being best friend's, if nothing else to make him believe it, but it appeared as though they were both just as confused about this arrangement. he wasn't sure what he had been hoping for. her to nod enthusiastically and be completely rock solid sure about them being best friends, maybe? all he knew was tat he was wishing, really really hard, so hard it hurt almost, that they would still be best friend'. because he couldn't imagine her being anything less than his other half. well, it just didn't seem right. maybe it was just him being too set into everything to not be able to accept change, but he didn't like it. way too much had changed already, this shouldn't change, it was just like his drug addiction. it wasn't wrong, there was nothing wrong with it, so why should it have to change? if anything, both were good things. to him at least.

he scratched the back of his neck awkwardly, running a hand through his hair and then letting his hand drop as he heard her speak again 'awe, you know really that he was a alcoholic. or a druggie...' his voice trailed off as he said the last bit - it wasn't just reagen now who was bringing up uncomfortable things. maybe it was just him, maybe this comment would just go unnoticed. she probably wouldn't even care anyway. she hadn't' cared too much about his drug addiction, right? he racked his brains back to sophomore year, trying to think of any side comments she might have said that would've shown how much she hated his addiction, but he really couldn't think. either sophomore year hadn't been a memorable year, haha, or something else. he was pretty sure though, that she hadn't been completely ecstatic about the whole thing. she wouldn't get it anyway - though she was his best friend and the one most liable to understand what on earth he was trying to talk about. he didn't even want to talk about it, or he might've, to at least get reagen to try and understand it all, but what would he say? he didn't know, he couldn’t really sum it up into words just how happy he'd been back then, without sounding like a pathetic loser who couldn’t be happy without snorting cocaine. but, it'd made the world so much easier to deal with, and it was rather overwhelming really, being shoved into high school completely sober with all this whack drama bout nothing important, and expected to be able to just cope with it all. so, the drama didn't even involve him, but still. it was weird, it wasn't normal, it was as if he'd been living on a whole other world from all these other angsting teenagers, like shoving a cat and a mouse into the same box and expecting them to get along perfectly. it didn't make sense.

he pretended to look offended as she spoke next 'well maybe, but remembering your birthday so isn't as important as me,' he shrugged finally, sticking his tongue out at her. it was weird how they got onto such random conversations, half the time they could never even remember how exactly the conversations had started off. they stemmed off onto long, rambling meaningless topics - none of it made sense to onlookers, but to jayden and reagen it made absolute perfect sense. that was probably why nobody else understood it; not many people got them, it was probably why people believed they were a couple with the way they acted as well. don't even get him started on how silly the whole 'jayden and reagen going out' thing was again, you'll be here all night. 'have you ever even worn boots before?' he asked in amusement 'and huh...well, you look short anyway...do the boots make you ears grow or something?' he teased, his eyes widening in pretend curiosity 'me? well, they'd make me look more hardcore but...' his voice trailed off as he grinned 'i might accidently step on your toes.' he winked at her, smiling brightly. of course he wouldn't do anything like that - mostly because people wearing steel toed boots looked ridiculously dodgy, like their toes have suddenly become three times their usual size. haha. and whilst it would be funny to see someone else wearing the damn things, they were also annoying to walk in, and a right pain in the ass if you did step on somebody else's toes, because then you'd have to take them to the hospital because you broke their toe, and they would most likely sue you. ‘and well, obviously they are,’ jayden replied as reagen spoke again, rolling his eye as if it were obvious ‘cause when they’re dropped on their heads, they’re like all.. squashed together so they lose a few inches,’ he shrugged ‘duh. everyone knows this reags. where have you been, c’mon, even i know this!’ he laughed, before adding ‘how d’you know i wasn’t dropped on my head when i was younger?’ he teased ‘it’s very likely!’ so, it wasn’t, of course, for his mother had been a ridiculously careful person with him and.. well, she’d never trusted his dad to hold him that much, haha. but then again, their conversations didn’t have to be based around the truth, right? as she pushed his shoulder, he pushed her back, leaning against her and stretching theatrically.

he raised his eyebrow as she asked him how he didn’t know the legal height for a midget. ‘because, uhm, i’m not a midget, so i don’t need to prove it by telling people my height?’ he shrugged ‘it’s not as if someone’s like, gonna jump out at me with a knife and tell me if i know the legal height for a midget, they’re not gunna kill me,’ he said with a slight smirk - well, if that did happen, he’d be too busy laughing [or planning an escape] to worry about what the answer actually was. he'd never been any good at fights anyway - and that was without knives, or anything, just people bigger than him and their fists. he pretended to look hurt as she said he wasn't awesome, clutching the place where his heart was supposed to be and feigning disbelief 'no way, if i'm not awesome you're definitely not awesome. because, obviously, i drag you down,' he explained 'because i'm good at doing that. so, if i'm not awesome, i instantly make you not awesome too!' he had weird logic like that, but oh well, most things were weird about him. he shrugged again as she poke, barely concealing a grin as he pretended to look solemn, mirroring her crossing her arms 'i never said that,' he said in mock indignation, quickly backtracking to see whether he had actually said that 'see, no, i didn't,' he added triumphantly 'i was just letting you into the secret of how i stay so thin. nothing wrong with that, is there? i was being generous,' he said with a pout, pretending to sulk 'god, you're like, so ungrateful.' rolling his eyes overdramatically up at the ceiling, he grinned as she carried on 'i know, right. my excuses are always the best, nobody can deny that.' he nodded quickly as she carried on 'i know, sounds painful,' he said sarcastically, with a slight laugh ' and no, definitely not fun,' he added seriously. it was funny, how they could both be so serious.. on such a stupid topic.

'well, i can't think of anyone who would want to be your enemy?' he started helpfully, cocking his head to the side as if he was thinking hard 'hm..but then again..' he let his voice trail off as he grinned at her 'obviously everybody would have to be jealous of you. cause you're so fucking sexy,' he laughed 'and because i'm your best friend. obviously,' he added as an afterthought, though that definitely wasn't as serious as the former comment. 'well, you could've fooled me,' he said with a hurt expression as she said he wasn't boring 'you were nearly falling asleep ms landers.' he tutted, shaking his head 'you're so mean.' pouting at her again, he shrugged nonchalantly as he carried on 'pft, but hobos are like. i don't know. all skanky and stuff. and they look as if they're gonna rape you, nobody who isn't at least half insane would go up to any hobo they met and give them a hug. it's like asking to be raped!' he said, nodding 'then again. you must be kind of really insane. imagine, going a whole year without seeing me... on the other hand, that might've been a good thing,' he said with a laugh, raising an eyebrow at her as she spoke again 'i'm not that heartless, i couldn't kill you with me.. ow,' he whined as she began to poke him. wriggling away form her slightly, so she couldn't poke him anymore, he pretended to be just as horrified as she began to defend mickey 'how can you not like goofy?' he protested 'he was amazing! and.. well.. mickey was..' he wrinkled his nose 'i don't know. his voice was sooo annoying. and like..okay, i've got nothing else,' he grumbled, giving up 'but he was weird!' he finished with a nod.

he grinned as she continued 'my own way?' he said with a raised eyebrow, stifling another laugh 'well... i guess that's the best i'll get for now,' he grinned, swinging his legs against the bed 'and huh.. yeah, i guess you're right. it's too early for me to think anyway. i have to wait until like... it's twelve before my brain switches on., and i've drunken all the coffee in the room,' he grinned. it was true, he drank way too much coffee for it to be normal, maybe it was why most of the time he could never get to sleep, he'd be too busy almost bouncing off the wall from the amount of caffeine in his system. his head would probably cave in without it though; at least, he wouldn't be able to function properly, haha. covering is mouth in mock shock as she told him he was mean, he shook his head violently 'no way, you're meaner than me,' he said, sticking his tongue out 'like, seriously, you're such a bitch to me, it's not a wonder i'm mean to you back!' of course reagen wasn't mean to him, and he wasn't mean to reagen [ at least, as far as he could remember, haha], they just had pretend arguments which were more like lovers tiffs than anything else. not because they were lovers obviously, but because the arguments were rarely, or never, serious. he wasn't sure why, he could just never bring himself to be mean to her. it was kind of like kicking a puppy. or a young kid. one of those toddlers, though they probably deserved it half the time, they were so annoying, it makes you want to hit them only you can't cause their parents are around. he'd never have kids, he was certain of that. he didn't like kids, they bugged him, and he was sure he'd be a crappy dad anyway, haha. he'd probably drop them on their heads or something stupid like that. shrugging at her question, he was about to answer before she spoke next and he ended up giggling instead of coming out with anything decent. when he'd finally stopped, he shrugged 'huh. you have a point. but. yanno, it's more along the lines of whether we're okay as we are now, or whether we're okay as in normal,' he shrugged 'because i'm pretty sure we'd fit into the first category more.' nodding enthusiastically as she said getting two guy roommates, he added 'only if they're good looking though,' he mumbled 'because. if they're not,. then i'll have to put up with you,' he grinned 'and seeing as we're never going to get anywhere like that, i'll be very sad and lonely and won't be able to get into anyone's pants. shock horror!' grinning, he added 'though i don't think we're allowed to choose.. though if a girl arrives i say we steal her trunk and then kick her out. yeah?'

'you spoil all my fun,' he grumbled, sulking at her 'but okay. we'll leave it for a week, by then it'll probably be messed up of it's own accord then anyway,' he pointed out with a shrug 'and then maybe nobody else will want to join our dorm because it'd be like an obstacle course just trying to get to the bed, and i don't think anyone could be bothered enough to try and get through our crap,' he mused. pretending to be offended as she continued, he answered 'well, obviously. because i'm loveable all round, and you love my bitch fits,' he laughed. looking over triumphantly as she gave in, he nodded 'yeah. so like... well, it's either i go to bed now or i sleep the whole day off tomorrow and get like, five detentions, which i won't do, and then i'll get more and then i'll get kicked out and.. well, actually, you probably won't care but i will,' he finished with a whine. 'and it'll be all your fault i never graduate from high school,' he accused. as she spoke again, he shrugged, before cocking his head to the one side 'what makes you think i have any money?' he asked 'i'm nearly brook as well. i'm probably still in debt from two years ago,' he laughed 'so you'll have to deal with mcdonalds if i do chicken out,' he grinned. 'which i won't, so, we'll have to starve,' he said theatrically 'how tragic.'

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TAGGED ?! rini/ reagen <3
STATUS ?! hey its done ?!
WORDS ?! 3541...xD
OUTFIT ?! grey drainpipe jeans and a band tee? idk?
LOCATION ?! the dormssss.
LYRICS ?! shinedown; 45.
PLAYING ?! i wanna - all american rejects. <3
NOTES ?! uhm. how the fucking hell it got so long, im still wondering myself xD
CREDIT ?! _and_heartsxx of CAUTION!

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[* reagan landers]

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why the bloody hell were they talking about girl jeans wearing guys? well, one might have been because she was looking at one of those said guys that wore girls jeans, but it was just something about them. she and jayden had always managed to talk about the randomest of things. their minds never really stayed on one topic well at all. when they were in history class, trying to work, they would end up talking about going off and finding a bunch of stray cats and keeping them in their dorms. see, that never had anything to do with the russian revolution at all, did it? not in reagan's mind, unless the cause of it was because of an army of cats or something. their conversations never really made sense to anyone else but them, unless someone else was involved with the conversation right from the get go, but that was pretty rare too. "how could i move on to another girls jeans wearing weirdo? you're one of the only people. the others are all actually girls." she might not have been completely honest with that, if she thought about it.... she was sure they were others around, but she probably didn't consider their jeans girls jeans. who really went around thinking those things. "and of course, i'd choose you over them. i've known you for ten freaking years, how could i not?" she pretended to look offended at his question, but the look faded as she watched his face, that smile he had on his face fading. sighing silently, she looked across the room at the other wall, knowing that that hadn't really been what he wanted to hear, more than likely. but she wasn't too sure either. were they still really best friends still? after all the shit that went down with them? she didn't know at all, and she wasn't sure if she actually ever would. it would just be too hard, really. sure, the way they were acting now... it seemed like nothing was wrong at all, but that would be to anyone else. to them, there was this awkward barrier that no one else could just see. she looked up, ready to open her mouth to speak again, but a knock at the door stopped her. glancing at the door, she raised an eyebrow as she stood up, looking over at jayden. "if we got a new room mate already, you throw something?" she said jokingly, though she was still in thoughts about earlier. but hey, she had to smile for whoever was at the door. walking over, she grabbed the knob and pulled the door open, but when she saw her friend blake standing there, she grinned a happy grin, most thoughts of doubt of her relationship with jay vanishing, at least for that minute. "what are you doing here?" she asked, laughing as she wrapped her arms around the boy's next. blake had been one of the only people she'd ever gone out with, and though it hadn't worked out at all with them, they were still pretty good friends. she bought out his silly side at times, she knew. "oh!" turning around, she motioned for jay to at least stand up and come over, which she doubted that he would do. "jay, this is my buddy, blake. we went out last year, but he goes here now, and i guess he's visitng...?" she turned back over to him. "are you visiting?" she asked curiously, but she shook her head before saying. "and this, is jay. i told you about him. the one i ran over with my bike when i was seven." she reminisced, laughing slightly. hearing the few words blake normally would say whenever he met someone new, she turned around, hearing blake say that he was just dropping by, he was moving into an apartment with some guy named aaron and another one named ryder. nodding, she gave him another quick hug before watching him walk down the hall and towards the stairs. she turned around, closing the door with a foot as she gave jay a grin.

now, she wasn't too smart, and wasn't sure if introducing jay right away had been a smart thing. sure, there wasn't anything going on between them, really. but it still felt weird, because she knew that deep down, she used to, maybe still, cared for jay a lot more than a normal best friend for ten years. but ever since their sophomore year, she'd pushed those feelings down to a place lower than the pit of her stomach. blake had been one of the first guys she'd tried dating, and it had been good for a while until it just didn't work out with them at all. but hey, it got her a really good friend. making herself comfortable back in her spot on theb ed, she rolled her eyes at his comment. "i think mom would decide to tell me if he was any of those... " she shrugged, ending that conversation off right there. ever since jay had moved back and came with that drug problem, she never really looked at drugs the same way again. before, she was tolerate of them. as long as no one tried to pressure her into doing them, she was fine. but once jay came back, she was against them a hundred percent. whether she knew them or didn't, it just bugged her. and the talk about drugs was just a sore spot for her. she was just not allowing herself to think about them. instead, she focused her mind on the situation at hand. she was going to try and get her mind on killing off this awkwardness. they never even had this awkward atmosphere going on whenever random people came up to them when they were together and asked how long they were dating. she couldn't tell you how many times they'd been asked that when they'd gone to the mall, or gone to the movies, or whatever. half the time it was those girls that came up to her asking if they were dating, and reagan would smile this cheesy smile and say they were best friends, even if at one point in time she wished it weren't that way at all. she wasn't even sure if she wanted that to happen nowadays either... she shook her head. she wasn't going off down that thought path anymore. instead, she made herself focus on the words that were comin gout of his mouth. she copied him, getting a faux offended look on her face. "hey hey hey! think about it; if i didn't have a birthday... well i wouldn't be here! and you know you wouldn't be able to handle life without me." she got a modest grin on her face for some unknown reason. she was kind of weird like that. she hated talking about herself, whether jokingly or seriously. she was just a failure at that. looking up at him, she pushed her weird feeling being extremely modest to the back of her head as she heard him. "pshh, no! i hate boots. i can't walk in them." she honestly couldn't. it was either sneakers, flip flops, or nothing at all. she was kind of a failure like that. to the dance that she'd been forced to go to last year, she'd worn Converse with her dress. she was just that unique, really. "and psh. nu-uh! .... though you might not want to wear boots from now on... or people'll start thinking you're an elf or something." she grinned teasingly, pushing his shoulder slightly. "ugh. steel toed boots are ugly! those soft boots with the little frills and stuff on it? yeah, i think those are much more for you." she had a cheeky grin on her face as she teased him. was there ever a moment in life where she didn't tease him about something? according to their current conversation, probably not.

"well, not everyone who's dropped on their head would lose a few inches! i mean, you were more than likely dropped on your head quite a few times." she said, not even bothering to notice she was agreeing with what he said. "i mean, if you hadn't been dropped on your head, you'd be taller than me by now." she smirked at him, knowing perfectly well that he would know that she was kidding. though it wasn't too likely. the few times she'd met his mom when she was younger, she was the type of mom that seemed to be careful about everything that went on in jayden's life. she'd been sure that her mom would have been yelling her head off at her for running her son over with her bike. though his mother had found it as funny as rea's dad had, a bit. "hey, how do you know? sandusky's filled with a crapload of weirdos. i mean, hello? we're in sandusky; that just means that there's a ton of weirdos in sandusky." she nodded her head as though the statement would be made true. that was something she often did; whenver she said something that more than likely wasn't true, she'd nod her head because it just made the statement feel more true. she'd always done that, even when she was a child. it was just something about her. "so remember; know the legal midget height, or you're gonna get mugged. and i might not be there to protect you. because, you know, i have these awesome muscles that you so envy." she even pulled the sleeve of her t-shirt up as far as it could go so that she could flex her muscles, which were practically non existant. she grinned at him. "see, i could totally protect you." she put her arm down and pulled her sleeve down as she heard him. "psh. but see, here's how it works. i'm just... you know, amazingly awesome. you're my best friend, so you're freakishly amazingly awesome. without me, you're just amazingly ..... something." she grinned, stretching. "so, i bring you up, and then without me, it's just not right."

"but, if you're offering advice on how to get skinny, that just means you're saying i'm not skinny." she frowned at him. "you're calling me pudgy." she looked off in the other direction as though she were really mad at him, though on her face, her lips were turning up into a amused smile. they often had the stupidest of conversations, and this was definitely on their list of stupid conversations. she was never really offended by those sort of things, and he bloody well should know that. they only had been friends for, what, ten years? "and maayyybee you're excuses are the best. and duh, broken ribs aren't fun. and you're the one that has to worry; when you go swimming and people see your ribs, it's one shove and ... ugh." she pretended to shudder at the thought of that. she didn't want to think of broken ribs; that was just something painful think of. she didn't like those painful thoughts. they made her just feel depressed. as she sat on her bed across from his, she looked jay up and down. she had to admit, he looked amazing from his days in rehab. sure, he was still as scrawny as he'd been during his drug days, but he looked a lot better than he did then, which she was happy about. she felt her smiling as she looked him up and down, but she looked down quickly, not wanting him to think she was just staring at him for no reason. okay, she was a loser; she still loved the damn boy. more than a best friend thing too. shaking her head, she rested her head against her arm, trying not to think of those things. she couldn't do that now. not after all the shit that they'd been through. which was a lot, surely.

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POSTING STATUS unfinished, kthxbai
TAG charzie // jayden <33
WORD COUNT 2003
LYRICS hey monday - homecoming
BANNER PERFECT SITUATION
TEMPLATE RINI TO THE RESCUE ?!
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